I know, I know, I've been a really bad blogger the past few weeks.

I just haven't been able to bring myself to post my all of our recent happenings and the feelings that come along with them. I suppose it's because so much of what I have to say is negative. Who wants to read all my whining and pouting?

I know it's not just us. So many people are going through hard times right now. It doesn't help that when you stop to fill up at the pump you can't help but notice the near $4.00/gal price tag. (I know it's even higher in some areas) When you go to the store for milk and it's nearly twice what it was just a few years ago, you know somethings up...and it's certainly not people's spirits!

Then I turn to my son and I see the 6 inch scar up the back of his head. Will his hair ever cover it? But that pondering is only skin deep, then I begin to find myself wondering was it worth it??? I mean, we're nearly 3 months out and he's still getting headaches, he complains that his legs hurt and he's dizzy anytime he's active. His handwriting is still downright awful, we've seen no improvements there.... and the bills are rolling in. OH MY GOD are the bills rolling in! Decent insurance doesn't help much when you choose to go "Out of Network" to take your child to the best Doctor possible. Don't get me wrong, I'd do it again in a heartbeat. I'm not taking any chances when dealing with my son's brain. I guess I do have to mention, he's not gagging and choking on food anymore. He's not constantly nauseous or vomiting either so I suppose the surgery wasn't entirely in vain. I guess I was just hoping for more. I knew there was a risk that the surgery wouldn't fix everything, but I had high hopes. Perhaps they were too high?

Then I turn to our new problem. My hubby was injured while lifting weights a few weeks ago. It doesn't look good for him. He's the breadwinner of the family, and with no disability coverage and a probability of shoulder surgery for him, the outlook is bleak.

I need to grab my camera and go out and snap some new shots of the kids. It's good therapy, I know it is, but I can't seem to get the energy to even turn my camera on here lately. Every day I find myself thinking... Tomorrow, tomorrow I'm going to get out and take some pictures. Well, tomorrow comes and goes and the camera continues to sit and collect dust. It's just not right! Tomorrow.... *sigh*

I'm looking forward to a nice change in luck. A brighter sun in the sky and less doom and gloom around here. If anyone wants to send any our way, please do!!

3 messages:

  1. M said...

    I think that's what a blog is for. To get everything off your mind without worrying about what anyone thinks. Bitch, moan, wallow, whatever helps.

    I'll always read, and I'll always sympathize.

    Life sucks sometimes. Really, REALLY, sucks at others. We'll all get through it. Maybe not the way we'd like, but through it just the same.  

  2. Brenda said...

    I am sorry to read that things seem so down right now for you. I feel the same way but for different reasons....but I too am kind of in a funk, and the fact that Spring and Summer never seem to be coming doesn't help.
    I agree with "M" that Blogs are for all the good, bad, and the ugly. Who cares what anyone else thinks. Writing about your feelings does help and you will be surprised just how many friends you do have out there who understand and can uplift you when you are down.
    Take care.

  3. jeneflower said...

    Wow. It sounds like you have been having a hard time. I see you wrote this a couple of weeks ago. I hope things are improving. I wouldn't worry about writing your troubles on line. We don't mind reading about them. I hope you feel better!  


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